My name is Anna and I’m a conflicted individual.
I like nothing more than sitting by a campfire and looking up at the stars with someone gently strumming their guitar, feeling the sand between my toes as I walk barefoot on the beach, sitting in a hostel bar and pondering the meaning of life over a beer with a complete stranger… and I also like handbags. And make-up. And jewellery and other pretty things.
I think a large part of this is the environment in which I happen to find myself. Clearly living the expat life in Geneva or working on luxury brands in London will have an effect, and it’s easy get into the habit of spending more money – buying a new handbag here, going to a nice bar there… On the other hand, travelling in South America or going camping in the English countryside will expose you to people with different priorities and a different lifestyle.
I’m somewhat reassured that I’m not alone in this – I was recently followed on Twitter by a glamorous travel writer who self-identifies as a “hippy in heels”, and I’m sure there are others out there who like a bit of boho and a bit of bling!
I find that this kind of contradiction manifests itself in other areas of my life as well. I want to be in the big city where things are happening and I want the peace of living close to nature. I find a more nomadic lifestyle appealing and I want a place that I can call home. I want to meet someone to share my life with and I want to retain my independence to live that life as I want to. I’m energised by contact with other people and I need my own space and ‘me time’. I strive to be fit and healthy and I like cake and piña coladas!
Did you notice that I’m saying “and” not “but”? Because I don’t think these desires are impossible contradictions, I think they can live together. It’s okay! You’re not evil for wanting a pretty handbag, you’re not vain for wearing a bit of make-up. You can be with someone and still have your own space. You can travel and still have a home. (Right?!)
So today I’m going on a private wine tour, and tomorrow I’m going kayaking. Vive la différence! Or something…